Saturday, October 29, 2011

First day home

Home home home at last. Only a couple shots from excruciatingly long travel day, my heart was breaking for my poor little girl.

Ready to go:



Her grieving began the night before we left Korea.saying goodbye to her old beautiful comfortable loving life, replaced by life seemingly to be lived on an airplane. Before getting on the second plane in Chicago, she and I both cried. I just hated putting her through any more.


Here she is sleeping on flight from Korea. Pretty empty plane, we ended up taking up 8 seats! 8 for the price of 2,not bad!



I stopped taking photos after this one, just so sad. I am forever grateful to the other adoptive families from whom I learned what might be expected to happen, what her grieving may look like, etc. It won't last, and she has started to show her funny silly side, her darling little chitchat voice.



Playing Korean Pokemon with her brothers.




Oscar and Zinny



Finn and Zinny



Lots of quiet rest and getting to know each other this coming week.
Korea was amazing, I loved experiencing the country on many different levels, so many many funny stories, so many beautiful moments, so many tears of joy, laughter and sadness.
It is so good to be home.

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Thursday, October 27, 2011

Flying Home

No time to writte, van driver here too soon! Photos of Zinny and Emily, foster sisters. Notice who has all the toys...












Won't sit still for photo!



Went to Korean target, they had pet shop, cool fish for sale! I got in trouble for taking this photo, haha.



Ahhhh, bath!



After sleeping with wet hair....I look pretty much the same. We are a couple of ravishing Opitz girls!

That's all for now, have to scurry and pack. Reach Omaha 10:30pm fri. Flight will be interesting! Momtokyleandpepper got me all pep talked for it. She's the best!

Goodbye Korea...


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Wednesday, October 26, 2011

More photos

Zinny napping, have a few minutes to blog. You mostly want to see photos so I won't bore you with the blah blah blah! To all of you who have sent me lovely messages I thank you! They mean the world to me!! I can't wait to bring her home! She has THE BEST sense if humor!! This morning we woke up together, her first reaction was "oh crap, you weren't just a dream", but within 2 minutes we were laughing and playing games. She and I seem to be communicating pretty well, she knows how to tell me her diaper needs a change, and I know how to understand her! Same with wanting to sleep, but not so much with the eating. Going to Korea target in a bit, need food! Apparently babies like to eat!! Haha. Mommytokyleandpepper and I went to Seoul Tower this morning! She's so fun, and she was totally stocked on the snacks! (thanks for sharing!)

Ok, there I go with the chatting, listen people, I've got BOTTLES TO WASH!! I don't have time for the chitchat! Haha.
This is Z right now:



There's nothing like a sleeping baby...she slept very well last night, FM taught me just what to do, and I would like to give a shout out to the mom on the forum who advised asking FM to SHOW how to comfort! Big help!!! Even though I think she thought I was a bit nutty when I asked her to show me how she changes her diaper...

Here was our celebratory dessert for such an incredible day:



This was from "Twosome Cafe".... Way better than paris baguette, if you happen upon one!

Zinny & I test out the carrier:








Ok, up from nap... Just posting photos from Seoul Tower and cab rides!














Locks of love at Seoul tower






Cable car ride to seoul tower



Our lock is the blue one







Back where we started!
More later.
Katie


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Zinny




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Quite a day! Details later, she just fell asleep and I am going to join her.
Talk soon,
Katie



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Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Zinny Day

How can my heavy heart fly so high?
It is mere hours until I meet our daughter. These feelings, the overwhelming joy, giddy excitement, nervous elation, and a heaviness, a profound respect, a deep sadness for Zinny's losses today. This is a happy, joyous day for our family, but a confusing and painful day for Zinny.

I can't stop wondering what her morning looks like today. How her foster mother is preparing herself for a goodbye, while I, at the same time, am preparing for a hello.

It is hard to find solid footing as my mind goes in two opposite directions at once. Thank goodness Anne is here to keep me anchored and not forget the important little things.

I know my loving Father has woven this beautiful day for us and for Zinny and there is pain and joy in the weaving, but because He is the weaver it is perfect.

Soon...


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Zinny Day Tomorrow!

I cannot wrap my mind around tomorrow. It all seems so unreal.
I have so many emotions and I just can't process them. These last few days here I have been keeping myself very busy,(mostly by riding the subway, haha) and so this day always seemed like it was far away. But tonight is the night to rest and pray for tomorrow. Nothing here is anything like I expected it to be, so I'm sure tomorrow will be full of surprises as well.

I'm not in the right frame of mind to write the blog post I really want to write tonight. Here are some photos from today.




First, I wrote my last blog post on our 2 1/2 hour subway ride this morning, and I was so tired. I meant to put this photo in with my Angel of Gwangju post. The story picks up at the toy store. Our new friend left us to shop and we said our goodbyes. She came back several minutes later
She came back and gave these to us for Zinny. So sweet!




This is a photo of one set of 56 stairs. We go up at least 4 of these for every subway change!




Bus ride for city tour. Got a little carsick...




Changing of the guards at a palace.



Obligatory palace photo!



Cool stream near Insadong.



Ordered Zinny's name chop!






Lunch in Insadong... Yes forum readers, Insadong best shopping, no contest!

Then my phone died, boo, no more photos! Sorry to my children.

Keep your eyes peeled for the next big post...






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Monday, October 24, 2011

Gwangju Day post #2

As you know we were still looking for a toy store, and now I was even more determined, how amazing would it be to buys gifts for Zinny from her birth city!? Time was slipping by so quickly, we wanted to catch the 5:10 train home to get back to the hotel by 10:30 (yep, 5 hours !) (and we missed that train anyway and didn't get back to hotel until 12:30, up again at 5....but that's for the next blog.) So at this part of the story we were frantically trying to find appropriate gifts from Gwangju (apparently Koreans are not so into the idea of t-shirts with city names on them, but darn if we didn't ask like 50 people, you'd think we would get the hint after the 12th person looked at us like we are mental).
Still no dang toy store, at this point I'm wondering what the heck Koreans do for childrens birthdays for petes sake! But i told Anne that i just knew God would send someone to help as He has so many many times in this trip. Its is just perfectly woven by Him, our trip. As we headed down yet another street chock full of the 4 types of shops in Korea (that I have seen so far, no disrespect, just frustration) we see what appeared to be an American lady. We did the usual: double take, eyes wide, mouth agape, sputter out the word 'english??' when we see someone of European descent. And what a lovely lovely lady!
We exchanged pleasantries and she said she has lived in Gwangju for 7 years! Isn't that perfect? And she wore a tiny angel pin. We asked her what she knew of toys stores, she said they really don't exist, except Lotte mart and those are way too expensive she said, but she thought there was one tiny one but it was a 20 minute walk, did we have time? It was cutting it close but we said yes, and she was OFF! This lady was in her sixties I'd say, and I had a hard time keeping up!....have I mentioned my leg situation? Ugh! At least no stairs in Gwangju! This lady was awesome! We traded stories on our sprint/hike. She welled up with tears, held my hands, was just so happy to hear about Zinny. We exchanged email and skype info, and then we were at the toy store YAY!!!
We said our goodbyes, I asked if she would pray for Zinnias grieving heart, and I was crying, and she grabbed my hands, looked deep into my eyes and said that it will be OK. That this is right, and I have a mothers heart. You see, I am carrying a heavy load of guilt for tearing Zinny away from foster mother and her country. And God sends this woman to me to tell me His words"it will be OK, it is right, I have made this."
I have freedom from the guilt now. But my heart is heavy still at what must happen.

Gwangju was very emotional and beautiful day.

Tomorrow is the big day. Prayers are very welcome and needed. Thank you.


On subway, 7:30, headed in for City Tour and Insadong. Meeting up with another Holt family, foster sister family. We move to
DMCville hotel tomorrow...yay! This is our last 2 hour ride in to Seoul. Will blog tonight, in early to rest up and pray and prepare. Thank you all for your prayers, God's peace is like a drug, I'm totally an addict!



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Gwangju Day post #1

Today was the day we planned our big trip down to Gwangju, Zinny's birthplace. Some said it couldn't be done, and we seriously considered staying in Seoul. But, we went, and because we hesitated so long, we had to book it to taxi, subway, train station. And to be honest, our legs are so tired from the bajillion stairs and Namsan Park, (and we both work out! We are in good shape) that I was trying to pass an elderly lady on the stairs at one of the subways, but I just couldn't do it! It was hysterical and a little embarrassing!

But we made it, with time to spare. The train was very nice.



A smooth 3 hour trip. And then we were there! Very emotional.


We met this guy, and he was so friendly, he let us take his photo. I find it fascinating to see men in fatigues, knowing what is just 30 miles north...crazy!



There are a lot of people in Korea, and the state is the size of like, Indiana. I am endlessly fascinated by the 50 story apartment buildings, and they always come in pods of 10-20.



Here are some photos of the countryside.







(Anne and I have a continuing debate about which is more dull, city building photos or landscape photos.....)

So we show up in Gwangju, we have no plan beyond that, don't know what's there, and we have no language translation book. We decided that this would have been a handy thing to have, but we had to wing it. And may I just say that taxi drivers do not speak English, they do not appreciate when you a)say the same thing over and over in English or b)talk loud and slow in English. They also don't like it when you hand them a map, pointing where you want to go, or trying to say your destination in Korean. And you can give them a piece of paper with your destination written in Korean and they will only understand it about 50% of the time! We have taken many many taxis! Good thing they are cheap and no tipping.

Thanks to Anne's sleuthing, we found this crazy department store and in the basement they have a grocery/beauty supply store. We saw these giant mussels in the fish department, and check out the flounder Oscar and Finn!



Seriously the mussels were 10-12 inches long and the flounder was 2 feet!



In the basement also was a 'diner'. Super cool! All along the counter were separate stations that specialized in one dish and a woman manning each one. There were like 12 stations, I've never seen anything like it. We ordered bibimbap and it was outstanding!










These are the abalones, kids. I ate them, they are sweet and fishy.




Skippy peanut butter costs $8.50 here!


We then took a taxi into downtown, to a very large market area.








It was a rainy day.

We were in search of a toy store, and again we were not finding anything. It seems every market we have been to has 4 different shops, clothes, shoes, accessories, and cell phones. It gets quite mundane after just a few minutes. But I'm not much into the shopping thing. A beautiful thing happened at about this point. But I will blog that in the Gwangju Day #2.
We had such a great time, we decided to catch a later train 'home'. Found a few souvenirs for you kids!! Bought a Gwangju newspaper for Zinny's baby box.

'Home' late, up super early to make our 2 hour, 5subway changes ride to DMCville for our city tour with Zinny's foster sisters' family. Very excited to meet them!

I love you Neil, Addie, Oscar, and Finn. I miss you too so much!


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